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44 - The Very Worst Missionary (feat. Jamie Wright)

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Heads up: this one's got some language. Everyone's favorite bad missionary, Jamie Wright, stops by to talk about her new book, the problems with missions, and how her self-worth and mental health impacted her over the years. 

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  • “I scraped together my value from being loved by the coolest person in the room.” (tweet)

  • “I felt like I was only as valuable as the most valuable person who loved me.” (tweet)

  • “There were all these issues that were supposed to go away because I was following Jesus.” (tweet)

  • “I think it’s part of the human condition to live in the tension of arrogance and self-loathing.” (tweet)

  • “You have to be able to look at the whole big picture of someone’s life…it all has to come into play when we decide what our ‘calling’ is.” (tweet)

  • “I think for the most part, our equipping is the life we’ve lived.” (tweet)

  • “My default when I’m really falling into depression is ‘I’m not depressed, I’m just lazy.’” (tweet)

  • “It took me a long time to realize ‘oh, this is depression.’” (tweet)

  • “When you start saying those things that sound so dangerous and taboo out loud, typically the response is ‘thank god you said that, I struggle too.’” (tweet)

  • “You have value. You were born with value.” (tweet)

  • “Dig deep. See a therapist. Ask your friends. Figure out who you are before you decide your value is based on someone else or something else.” (tweet)

  • “Lean in. Lean into the hard work of figuring out who you are.” (tweet)

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Intro/Outro music for this episode is ‘Fall Down’ by Rivers & Robots.